Confessions of a fat girl

ummm dude.  you're backwards.

I haven't been to the gym in over ten days.  Since CPS came to my door last week, I haven't had a day without the kids with me, and I can't take them to the gym without paying.  I took the kids to the doctor, the lab for blood work, and then one of my sons was suspended.  Suspended!!!  Today I finally have a day to go to the gym, and I seem to have misplaced my gym shorts.  I found them just in tie for my boys to get home from school.  I feel like an absolute failure.  Here I am, joining a gym, and then NOT GOING.  Valid reasons or not, it feels like I am making excuses.  No more.  Tomorrow I Go To The Gym No Matter What.

CPS came to the house because someone reported me for 'medical neglect' of my children because they 'seem depressed' and 'come to school out of uniform and dirty.'  My boys don't like school, but that doesn't make them depressed.  And as there is no uniform, my boys are always in dress code and usually clean.  Since the definition of a boy is noise with dirt on it, that is.  They shower every other day and since they are prepubescent, that is totally fine.  When they start smelling up the joint with their hormones and angst, they will shower daily.

for the record, my kids are free range. cage free.

Since I took the boys to their head shrinker in March, and the school knew of this, and the head shrinker said to test the boys for adhd, I got the tests for adhd.  Now I can't find anyone to get results from, since the shrink said she can't do it and the pediatrician said he'd prefer a shrink do it.  I am back at square one, and there is only a week of school left.  Oh, and CPS had to reschedule their second visit, which could have closed the case, because some poor kid was abused and in the hospital so they had to take care of that kid first.  I pray for that kid, and I rarely pray.  CPS has so many more kids that actually need their assistance.  I don't get why I am being punished like this, any why CPS is wasting their time on me. 

In two weeks, I leave for Colorado with the kids.  I am going to the Denver Comic Con and then basically coming home so I can get started on my nutrition classes for the bariatric surgery.  Three months of that, and I can get sliced and diced and put back together to avoid my duodenum.  yay.