I've been in survival mode for a few days
Had a chain of anxiety attacks earlier this week that I am struggling to recover from
Like a blister I protect myself
Haven't listened to the radio for three days too much stimulation to my ears
Haven't eaten without vomiting it all back up in 50 hours
Haven't tried to contact my Man in 36 hours because I want Him so badly to help but I can't bear to be disappointed so I don't try
I sealed myself into a container with fiber fill fluff and put myself on a shelf
Heading to work with a sandwich sitting in my stomach like a cold lead ingot
I need to vomit this is so uncomfortable
I will overcompensate with manufactured happiness
Until I heal
Could be weeks
Emotional exhaustion just sleep it away
At least I'm numb
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