I know it has been nearly two months since my last blog post. I am sorry...a lot has been going on, and I was unable to find the words necessary to describe the changes. I still can't, but I have decided that it doesn't matter and I will just have to make this one muddled post and catch up.
The Man came back from Turkey and was informed that there was no longer a job for him. What an outright disappointment. He had only been with the company for 9 months, and had worked his ass off for them. I had left my career behind for it, and we had dedicated everything we had to it. BUT c'est la vie, we are fine. They gave him a month notice and no severance, since he hadn't been there long, and he was able to find two jobs that paid more and were local. He chose the one that paid the most with the best benefits. Good job. However, he took about three weeks off of work in between jobs to relax and shit, and so we are kind of out a paycheck for the month of July. He won't get paid till August 15 or so, and so that really, really sucks.
I haven't done any more work on my sleeve tattoo, because of the lack of funds in the household. Fortunately, the Man has agreed that he likes the sleeve and will continue to fund it when he is paid again. So I only need to wait another month or so in order to hear the distinctive buzz of the tattoo shoppe and smell the disinfecting wash. I like that smell.
We dealt with CPS the best way we could, and I think the case might be closing or closed soon. I honestly don't know. The lady said she wanted to be sure that my house was clean before she closed the case...so she came by and the house was spotless....and she left. who knows where that will end up?
I began my journey anew to the bariatric surgery. Since we are switching insurance companies, I don't know how it will affect me. I have gone to get the psych evaluation that was required, and I have been to the first of my nutrition classes. I am now on a ketotic diet to attempt to lose some weight before the surgery. On Aetna, I have to do three months of the nutrition classes, and I am not allowed to gain any weight prior to the surgery. However, I don't have Aetna anymore, I believe that we will be on Blue Cross Blue Shield of Texas and there will be a whole other set of rules to abide by, starting August 1. FUN!!
As for the diet, the nutritionist seemed pretty militant about it. Which I can understand. But after talking to other women who have had the same and similar procedures, it is best not to sabotage myself with an abrupt diet change. I have started 'eating' three meals a day (as part of the ketotic diet, one meal needs to be a high protein shake). I am drinking the amount of water they require (64oz). I am struggling with not drinking for 30 min prior to a meal and an hour after the meal though. I have considered setting timers throughout the day to tell me when to snack, when to drink, etc. But then the timers would be going off every hour and a half and it would get weird. However, then I would get into the routine.....I am so freaking lazy about this right now. My favorite snack so far is raw almonds with a few coconut flakes. I couldn't find coconut flakes without sugar on them, but again....not sabotaging myself yet. So i am allowing myself a little leeway here and there. I had dinner at a friend's house last night and she made chicken fajitas. They had corn and black beans....and although I am supposed to stay away from corn and tortillas, I ate them. And they were healthy and delicious. Certainly better than something I would pick up at a drive through.
And then there's my dating life.....that's a whole other blog. Literally.
My son and his friend, who will be moving far away next month, are debating the ninja skills of TMNT and Ninjago Legos. Oh, and now they have lightsabres. My kids are awesome. My other son is in his room, reading. Awesome.
